In 2009 I was working with a lady who had been through extreme life challenging situations. The last relationship had been very stressful, with a narcissistic partner who had not only betrayed her in many ways but also left her with huge debts. Her landlord took her to court over a refurbishment issue, despite the existence of a written agreement to reimburse her expenses. She was constantly faced with another major problem, working all hours under the sun to keep everything going. Regular Journey work kept her motivated, solving parts of her hardship, to then be faced with something else.
Of course this can happen for many reasons and when we really take responsibility and wish to address our issues, we begin to understand as to why things are happening, the connections between past and present, as well as karmic lessons.
One day my client found herself in the most dire situation one could possibly imagine. At the time she had been a single mum since her separation, with 2 young children, self-employed, working very hard, without receiving regular payments from her clients. This made it difficult for her to pay the rent in a new property for 4 months, on the verge of being evicted and becoming homeless. She rang me absolutely desperate. I asked whether she remembered having made a death wish at some point. In her state of worry her mind was blank, unable to retract a memory. I promised to help her and asked her to get in touch with me, should she have some kind of realisation. 2 days went by when she rang me saying: “Patrizia, I now know what has happened to me! About 3 years, before me and my partner split, I found myself in such devastating circumstances, this is when I made a death wish!” She explained what happened, there and then we decided to take her through a vow change.
During a vow change, the person is taken back to a time and place where an unhealthy vow was made, in this case a death wish. On this occasion it was done from self-punishment and guilt. The person is then asked whether they are ready to clear the death vow. It is all based on free will. If the answer is yes, present guides and mentors remove the vow and give the person the choice to replace the old with an alternative healthy beneficial wish. A positive affirmation is now firmly installed within the consciousness of the person, restoring the old magnet of bad luck.
Once the client was able to forgive herself, she could physically feel the old death vow being removed. A few days later she reported a feeling of ‘liberating lightness’. 1 month later she told me she had reconnected with a beautiful soul mate, whom she later married. She also found her dream job with a secure income, able to pay back her debts; finally she was able to experience the joys of life. Of course, life will always throw one thing or another at us, with the absence of a death wish this can be mastered much more effortlessly. Today that very lady is healthily detached from the past haunting events, she can barely believe this used to be part of her.
Forgiveness is an important aspect when moving through our fascinating healing journey, creating a strong shift in consciousness. Our cells light up at last, love can finally heal old stubborn wounds.
