In 2009 I was working with a lady who had been through extreme life challenging situations. The last relationship had been very stressful, with a narcissistic partner who had not only betrayed her in many ways but also left her with huge debts. Her landlord took her to court over a refurbishment issue, despite the existence of a written agreement to reimburse her expenses. She was constantly faced with another major problem, working all hours under the sun to keep everything going. Regular Journey work kept her motivated, solving parts of her hardship, to then be faced with something else.

Of course this can happen for many reasons and when we really take responsibility and wish to address our issues, we begin to understand as to why things are happening, the connections between past and present, as well as karmic lessons.

One day my client found herself in the most dire situation one could possibly imagine. At the time she had been a single mum since her separation, with 2 young children, self-employed, working very hard, without receiving regular payments from her clients. This made it difficult for her to pay the rent in a new property for 4 months, on the verge of being evicted and becoming homeless. She rang me absolutely desperate. I asked whether she remembered having made a death wish at some point. In her state of worry her mind was blank, unable to retract a memory. I promised to help her and asked her to get in touch with me, should she have some kind of realisation. 2 days went by when she rang me saying: “Patrizia, I now know what has happened to me! About 3 years, before me and my partner split, I found myself in such  devastating circumstances, this is when I made a death wish!” She explained what happened, there and then we decided to take her through a vow change.

During a vow change, the person is taken back to a time and place where an unhealthy vow was made, in this case a death wish. On this occasion it was done from self-punishment and guilt. The person is then asked whether they are ready to clear the death vow. It is all based on free will. If the answer is yes, present guides and mentors remove the vow and give the person the choice to replace the old with an alternative healthy beneficial wish. A positive affirmation is now firmly installed within the consciousness of the person, restoring the old magnet of bad luck.

Once the client was able to forgive herself, she could physically feel the old death vow being removed. A few days later she reported a feeling of ‘liberating lightness’. 1 month later she told me she had reconnected with a beautiful soul mate, whom she later married. She also found her dream job with a secure income, able to pay back her debts; finally she was able to experience the joys of life. Of course, life will always throw one thing or another at us, with the absence of a death wish this can be mastered much more effortlessly. Today that very lady is healthily detached from the past haunting events, she can barely believe this used to be part of her.

Forgiveness is an important aspect when moving through our fascinating healing journey, creating a strong shift in consciousness. Our cells light up at last, love can finally heal old stubborn wounds.

There are so many reasons to be grateful for having found the powerful healing tools of The Journey Work, one of them being learning all about the existence of vows, what they are, when they were made, where they come from, their constructive or destructive power on our lives, the lives of others and – in concentrated energy forms – on the world.

We understand the importance of how our thoughts can affect our lives and the world outside. Everything in our body is connected to everything else. None of our organs or body parts are separate; they support each other and work best together when we are in a good mood, promoting harmony and health. After attending a dissection course during our Bowen training at a medical school in London, we were given a clear insight into how absolutely everything inside and outside our bodies is connected.

Energetically, we humans and all life are equally connected. How many times have you found yourself thinking a thought and noticed that the person next to you was expressing that same thought aloud? This is because our consciousness can pick up the thought processes of someone close to us, as the auric fields are interconnected. Or how often has it happened that you were about to contact someone and that very person contacted you the moment you thought of them?

Every thought we have projects outwards and creates streams of energy that can be either constructive or destructive. We could look at the outside world and say: “that has nothing to do with me”, in reality it does. The effects of the intentional energy of our thoughts that we send out will return, an action born of that thought will also return. The moment we clear an inner conflict and clear all toxic emotions, we create a healing ripple effect throughout the world because of our interconnectedness.

Even before spiritual teachings became so popular, we often heard the phrase ‘be careful what you wish for’…

We have heard and read about energy blocks and barriers created by society’s educationally conditioned, sabotaging, limiting belief systems. We know that they exist and that they can be stuck in our consciousness, we have learnt along the way that we are able and capable of recognising them and transforming them into positive, reassuring affirmations. Affirmations are the most powerful statements we can make, they act like a strong power line, directing and projecting outwards and then reflecting back exactly what we have sent out. When made with pure intention, they can protect and guide us to the point where we are always brought back to our purposeful path, bringing us back into a positive frame of mind.

Examples of positive vows/beliefs are

• I will always remain connected to love,
• Love and health are my number 1 priority
• Life on earth is precious and I respect that, including my own
• Somehow I always find my way back to my true self
• If somebody treats me with disrespect, I respectfully have to step away from that energy
• I won’t control anybody and equally I will not sacrifice my freedom
• I deserve to be happy because I am

Continue to ensure that the intention around a positive vow remains as pure as possible, so that no underlying thoughts of secondary gain, of causing hurt, manipulation or dominance, interfere with what you really are seeking to express.

Life condemning beliefs and statements, death vows made during tragic moments, trauma, abuse, grief or disappointment can be fatal and drastically affect our future lives. For obvious reasons, death vows are the worst kind of vows. They can sound like this: 

• My life is worthless, what’s the point of me even being here
• I wish I didn’t exist or I wish I wasn’t born
• Everybody hates me, because I am a nobody, I wish I was dead
• I hate my life and everybody in this world
• If things don’t improve, I kill myself
• Nobody cares if I died, I might as well be gone
• I wish I didn’t have to feel this pain or any emotion, I’d rather be dead
• Life is one big painful torture, what’s the point in living
• …..

You get an idea of what is meant by these examples!

They imply hopelessness and meaninglessness about life and the self, devoid of any meaning or purpose. It is the greatest form of self-punishment we can build against ourselves, a huge block to love and appreciation, an eruption of negative beliefs that have convinced the mind that nobody cares, so what’s the point of caring. Carrying a conscious or unconscious death vow – no matter why and when it was made – will lead to a downward spiral where things start to go wrong. It means entering a space of living a life full of unnecessary risks. It can even get to the point where a death wish can lead to illness and eventually become a reality.

This does not mean that every accident is related to a death wish. There may be other factors, and you need to start exploring what is causing the accidents. You may not even have a death vow, but there may be other negative vows running your life at the moment. All of this can be cleared and replaced by saying to yourself, your Higher Self, your guides that you are ready to be released from these chains. Replace them with a variety of healthy, life-affirming statements.

If there is a death wish, it could be linked to many stressful situations, including weight problems or addictions. Without consciously clearing self-destructive vows, either through meditation, a journey of self-discovery or simply remembering whether we have one or not, we continue to carry a heavy burden on our shoulders. Why would we choose to burden our lives when all we can do is choose the gift of free will to set ourselves free! Negativity of any kind is definitely something that our spirit does not want us to hold on to any longer.

As mentioned above, what we express inwardly will be reflected outwardly, death wishes will not only affect us, they will consequently affect our world. What affects our world will negatively affect us. We are all interconnected and cannot expect our actions to remain ineffective.

Our world is currently being run by mass destructive energies that are being reflected back at us, unlike at any other time in the history of this existence of the human race. As we have been told by Archangel Gabriel: ‘It looks as if your world is being run by one big death wish, humanity is on a course of self-destruction’.

We can now choose once again to clear the unwanted and transform the unchangeable past. This will lead to a shift in consciousness and from there more positive change can happen. The more of us who clear our old or recently made anti-life wishes, the more this worldwide cloud of mass destructive energy will be reduced. From there we can begin to move forward more effortlessly, releasing old, outdated ego patterns that focus solely on self-aggrandisement and glorification. Appreciation of what we are given for free must be prioritised; a life worth living, filled with freedom, abundance, simplicity, joy, laughter, love and miracles.

When removing negative, life-threatening, self-made vows, be sure to include bad wishes or curses, whether they come from you or someone else. Nothing must come between you and us and why we are here to fulfil our purpose of contributing to peace. We must continue on our healing path and continue to forgive so that our hearts can open again to the spirit of true love.

Dictators who thrive on the energy of death wishes and spread hate and division will disappear along with their followers who are driven by a false sense of power. Misleaders are subject to negative entities who use their super egos to cause disharmony and extreme destruction. Falling prey to such terrible traps by obeying their demands to look down on each other, thus spreading hatred, will inevitably contaminate all the natural resources and essentials we depend on, such as water, air and the ground we walk on. On top of that, following anti-humanitarian propaganda will create big karma!

Replace a death wish with a desire to love life in all its natural glory, to appreciate what you have, even if it is the tiniest flicker of something good in your life. Welcome yourself back to an enlightened path, one that allows trees to grow, clear water to flow, fresh air to fill your lungs. Step away from the manipulation of the justification of war, famine, discrimination and racism. Peace, compassion and care are the essence of our pure original state of mind. Healthy mind, healthy body reawakens the divine spark of supreme consciousness. Turn your life around, create a vibrant, abundant life on earth, follow your soul’s purpose. You can do it!

Self-forgiveness requires the greatest courage in the total process of forgiving, without it we can not complete the act of forgiveness and call ourselves free from the burdens of the past. In so many cases it is the hardest part to accomplish when looking back at the things we have done, those actions we rather wished we’d carried out a different way, knowing how much pain we have caused.

Although we know very well today that at the time we were in a different state of mind, younger, therefore possibly less thoughtful, the sheer fact that we were even capable of telling somebody something hurtful – or worse – those irreversible actions we took, led to so much unnecessary pain. Facts we find very hard to digest. Actions do speak louder than words, whether we use them to create beauty or in harmful ways.

First of all let me tell you that the ability to take such self-introspection in itself is a clear sign that we have come a long way, away from an old self, unable to see what it was doing at the time, or simply didn’t care. The interesting thing is that, when we look back at our younger selves, we can look at that part of ourselves as if looking at somebody else. Yes, it is a part of us from the past, echoing into the present, effecting the now. We are allowed to recycle and transform those events into something positive; holding onto guilt, based on stubbornness, be it from a need to self-punish or a resistance to ever change, will complicate your life unnecessarily. We need to remind ourselves that we are not that old self anymore, our consciousness is forever developing, an ongoing transformative process. Yet, we are holding and clinging onto the things we cannot change anymore, therefore blocking parts of our transformative genes, overpowered by an unwillingness to self forgive. A refusal to forgive that old part is like forbidding the self access to a close reunification with our souls and Higher Selves! Many amongst us have – through their valuable realisations of their self-reflections and insights – long decided to change their behaviour and gone out their way to take appropriate measurements to stop making the same ‘mistakes’ again. Yet, that guilt is still present from the past and unless that is cleared, our own part in being of divine service to others is simply hindered by an old misguided or misbehaved part of us.

Everything in our Universe, in all Universes, on our planet and every other planet, keeps evolving, we keep evolving. If we decide to stop evolution for ourselves by holding onto who we are not anymore, keeping that negative image with a growing self-hate alive – and non-self-forgiveness will do that – then we will begin to stagnate. Stagnation will lead to a whole host of self-sabotage and blocks, definitely taking us away from the beauty, the uniqueness, the brilliance of who we really are. Ego will begin to act as an artificial replacement, until we finally decide to take that step and cut an old outworn cord to our older inexperienced unconscious self.

We cannot be that person again as we were in the past of this present life or an entirely other existence, in the exact same way as we were then. In other life times we might have been of a different gender, nationality, society, with its own limiting belief systems. In this life we can find ourselves surrounded by new life conditions and circumstances, we have changed in many ways! Our look, our body has changed! All of our existences have given us a variety of different experiences. The consciousness of our soul remembers everything and is with us during every incarnation, manifested through its physicality. Yet our behaviour, attitudes, new connections have shaped us! We are an eternal life form, which has decided to experience itself in physical reality. In that our life experiences are vast, our body is the vessel that carries itself with its cells memories time and time again. What shapes us depends on so many factors, including our personality types, our upbringing, perceptions and belief systems, forming our behaviours to be of a certain way. Today we might think those behaviours in the past were unhealthy or unjust. What matters is our readiness to reconnect with the core of our inner truth, who we are and why we are here. Our thoughts, actions, deeds can assist us as the most precious lessons of human behaviour moving through life, transforming us into a wealth of divine universal consciousness or keep us stuck in a stagnant low vibrational guilt consciousness, life time after life time, wasting precious global time to finally evolve out of a vicious circle, effecting everybody else.

Remember this, when you find it hard to self-forgive; in truth you are made of the purest thought of love consciousness, equipped with your own unique genes. You are an image of God’s original self, as different from everybody else as snow flakes are from one another. Although none of us were sent to destroy, manipulate, control and overpower that which can never be overpowered, our minds can easily be altered away from our true beauty into something it was never meant to be and then act from that level of awareness, unlike that of the original compassionate human consciousness.

For whatever reason you became an artificial alteration of your divine self, use that as your doorway back into your power of loving yourself! You have that power with the support of your most reliable allies; your soul and – more importantly – your spirit. Open that door and transform all the illusionary uncomfortable aspects and occurrences into the best positive outcomes, reconnect with your Higher Self, celebrate it! Your growing awareness of yourself, your self forgiveness, is the gateway into understanding yourself and that of human race behaviour. It is giving you vital insights into the aspects of how the mind operates when shut down to its spiritual connection. In that judgement diminishes, providing a much clearer approach when interacting with others. One day you will meet people acting in the same way like you once did, giving you a clear insight into what you used to be like and how that must have come across for others. Those people will relate to you a lot more when they see where you have have been and how far you have come. Your wisdom will teach and inspire them to belief they can transform too because in reality there are no others, only the self.

Look at the impact converted drug dealers have or fraudsters, racists or fanatics when they had their moment of truth and talk from their experience and realisations to people on that same destructive life path, trying to give them an insight into their meaningless actions, opening their minds by demonstrating that there is a way out.

These lessons are guidelines from which we can firmly decide which path we wish to walk; that of mind controlled misleading darkness or that of eternal love light joy consciousness!

Remove all death wishes, self punishment vows, oaths of an obedient nature, self limiting belief systems, return to your truth and then align with the truth of God’s pure thought and belief in you. Find out for yourself how light it feels to be emerged in the wonders of self-forgiveness, become a beacon to everybody else in your inner and outer world of love surrender.

Your guides will assist and support you with everything you ask them to, help you cut unhealthy cords, remove negative embedded commands of every kind. One thing they will not do is do it all for you, without you really taking full responsibility and action. This would be disempowering for the growth of your soul & spirit. Once they see that you are willing to commit to fulfilling your purpose, dealing with issues, forgive and make vital positive changes, work on an overload of ego behaviours, support will be given within the confines of God’s will and purpose. Angels and guides have no free will and therefore act in accordance with God’s pure intent of his creation of the human race.

In other words; there has to be a structure in place from a place of justice, unconditional love for every single one of us, self responsibility and divine empowerment. To ensure the same rights for everybody at any time and to stop the chance to overpower and completely alter the core of divinity, certain laws had to be put in place providing a safe haven of equality, which is there to erase envy, jealousy, judgement. If certain people were treated by the divine in a privileged way, equality could not be sustained. Therefore all of God’s messengers have to act within the structure of this law in connection with us. We are all free to choose how to co- and re-create within the confines of this very purposeful woven network structure. The law of karma for instance ensures that actions taken are a constant reflection of consequences on the self, from which we eventually will have to learn to treat others how we wish to be treated ourselves.

It is always in the interest of the divine, its messengers and helpers, to make this world a better place and in that we must trust that we are supported every time we intent to make a positive change to connect to the light of source, our birth place.

The more we reconnect and merge with our Higher Self, the more peace and love we create on our planet. Nobody can do it for us, but with us. We can be our worst enemy or our most loyal trustworthy friend we have always been looking out for.

Resentment creates separation in every way, forgiveness is the key to Oneness, starting with yourself today. Let nobody persuade you to stop following that path of re-connection, not even your own ego self. Realise, forgive, let go, embrace, experience YOU in every facet of your brilliant existence.